Life is simple. its either yes or no, right or wrong, up or down, good or bad.  Now with that said how do you say no to that which you always say yes to? Why is the right so fucking hard to see, when you never did anything wrong to begin with. And what about how one minute your up and the next your down and that bad feeling that makes you feel good. Excuse me,  GREAT!   Its not as simple as I would love it to be, trust me, less headaches and even lesser grey hairs. lol..

February, 2007

Dont want much @ all...........

Im on edge, Im anticipating not the good but the amazing, the unbelievable.  My blessing in disguise, with a smile to brighten up my heart and my life.  Me to be, a priority again.  Huh…… That first kiss feeling whenever we kiss and when eyes meet, its love every time.  That healthy apatite they share will remain even if time separates the two.  This bond can not be broken by force, time, nor persons.  Take a look inside, where you will find my heart always in your hands.  It is my own fault,, a dereliction of my own feelings. Wanting to love and be loved back. One simple request.

CUnable to brake free…. me from you and you from meB

January 19, 2007

h Memo to self g

 Things aren’t as pleasant as I would like them to be

I keep telling my self “I am happy, it’s only temporary”

Finding it hard to act like I don’t care

Screaming on the inside because this shit just aint fare

 I wonder if its worth it, does he see my efforts and strides

Did God plan for this to be, is love even on my side

I could never express exactly how it is that I feel

She’s perfect for you and Im a secret that’s real

 I have no regrets about us and our past

It was true love, and I will make it last

Giving up is not an option, just a thought that WAS

A friend is what you want, but u cant turn your back on lYve

January 10, 2007